451 Once after Holy Communion, I heard these words: You are Our dwelling place.
At that moment, I felt in my soul the presence of the Holy Trinity, the Father, the
Son, and the Holy Spirit. I felt that I was the temple of God. I felt I was a child of
the Father. I cannot explain all this, but the spirit understands it well. O Infinite
Goodness, how low You stoop to Your miserable creature!
452 If only souls would become recollected, God would speak to them at once, for
dissipation drowns out the world of the Lord.
453 (189) On one occasion, the Lord said to me, Why are you fearful and why do you tremble when you are united to Me? I am displeased when a soul yields to vain terrors. Who will dare to touch you when you are with Me? Most dear to Me is the soul that strongly believes in My goodness and has complete trust in Me. I heap My confidence upon it and give it all it asks.
454 Once, the Lord said to me, My daughter, take the graces that others spurn; take as many as you can carry. At that moment, my soul was inundated with the
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love of God. I feel that I am united with the Lord so closely that I cannot find words
to express that union; in this state I suddenly feel that all the things God has, all the
goods and treasures, are mine, although I set little store by them, for He alone is
enough for me. In Him I see my everything: without Him – nothing.
I look for no happiness beyond my own interior where God dwells. I rejoice that
God dwells within me; here I abide with Him unendingly; it is here that my greatest
intimacy with Him exists; here I dwell with Him in safety; here is a place not probed
by the human eye. The Blessed Virgin encourages me to commune with God in
this way.
455 When some suffering afflicts me, it no longer causes me any bitterness, nor do
great consolations carry me away. I am filled with the peace and equanimity that
flow from the knowledge of the truth. How can living surrounded by unfriendly
hearts do me any harm when I enjoy full happiness within my soul? Or, how can
having kind hearts around me help me when I do not have God within me? When
God dwells within me, who can harm me?
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Three-day Retreat.
456 On the evening of the introductory day of the retreat, as I listened to the points for
the meditation, I heard these words: During this retreat I will speak to you through the mouth of this priest to strengthen you and assure you of the truth of the words which I address to you in the depths of your soul. Although this is a retreat for all the sisters, I have you especially in mind, as I want to strengthen you and make you fearless in the midst of all the adversities which lie ahead. Therefore, listen intently to his words and meditate upon them in the depths of your soul.
457 Oh, how astonished I was, for everything the father said about union with God and
the obstacles to this union I had experienced literally in my soul and heard from
Jesus, who speaks to me in the depths of my soul. Perfection consists in this
close union with God.
458 During the ten-o'clock meditation, Father [Rzyczkowski 98] spoke about divine
mercy and about God‟s goodness to us. He said that as we review the history of
mankind, we can see this great goodness of God at every step. All the attributes
of God, such as omnipotence and wisdom, serve to reveal to us the greatest of His
attributes; namely, His goodness. God‟s goodness is the greatest of God‟s
attributes. Many souls striving for perfection, however, are not aware of this great
goodness of God. Everything that Father said in the course of the meditation
about the goodness of God, was exactly what Jesus had said to me concerning (191) the Feast of Mercy. I have now come to understand clearly what the Lord
has promised me, and I have no doubt about anything; God‟s language is clear
and distinct.
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459 Throughout that entire meditation I saw the Lord Jesus on the altar, in a white
garment, His hand holding the notebook in which I write these things. Throughout
the entire meditation Jesus kept turning the pages of the notebook and remained
silent; however, my heart could not bear the fire that was enkindled in my soul.
Despite the great effort of my will to take control of myself and not let others see
what was going on in my soul, toward the end of the meditation I felt that I was
completely beyond my own control. Then Jesus said to me, You have not written everything in the notebook about My goodness towards humankind; I desire that you omit nothing; I desire that your heart be firmly grounded in total peace.
460 O Jesus, my heart stops beating when I think of all You are doing for me! I am
amazed at You, Lord, that You would stoop so low to my wretched soul! What
inconceivable means You take to convince me!
461 This is the first time in my life that I have made such a retreat. I understand in a
special and clear way every single word that Father speaks, for I have first
experienced it all in my soul. I now see that Jesus will not leave in doubt any soul
that loves Him sincerely. Jesus wants the soul that is in close communion with
Him to be filled with peace, despite sufferings and adversities.
462 Now I understand well that what unites our soul most closely to God is self-denial;
that is, joining our will to the will of God. This is what makes the soul truly free,
contributes to profound recollection of the spirit, and makes all life‟s burdens light,
and death sweet.
463 (192) Jesus told me that if I should have any doubts regarding the feast or the
founding of the Congregation, - or regarding anything else about which I have spoken in the depths of your soul, I will reply immediately through the mouth of this priest.
464 During a meditation on humility, an old doubt returned: that a soul as miserable as
mine could not carry out the task which the Lord was demanding [of me]. Just as I
was analyzing this doubt, the priest who was conducting the retreat interrupted his
train of thought and spoke about the very thing I was having doubts about; namely,
that God usually chooses the weakest and simplest souls as tools for His greatest
works; that we can see that this is an undeniable truth when we look at the men He
chose to be His apostles; or again, when we look at the history of the Church and
see what great works were done by souls that were the least capable of
accomplishing them; for it is just in this way that God‟s works are revealed for what
they are, the works of God. When my doubt had completely disappeared, the
priest resumed his conference on humility.
465 Jesus, my Life, how well I feel that You are transforming me into Yourself, in the
secrecy of my soul where the senses can no longer perceive much. O my Savior,
conceal me completely in the depths of Your Heart and shield me with Your rays
against everything that is not You. I beg You, Jesus, let the two rays that have
issued from Your most merciful Heart continuously nourish my soul.
466 (193) Time of Confession
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My confessor [Father Sopocko] asked me if at that moment Jesus was there and if
I could see Him. “Yes, He is here, and I can see Him.” He then told me to ask
Jesus about certain persons. Jesus did not answer me, but looked at him.
However, after the confession, when I was reciting my penance, Jesus spoke
these words to me: Go and console him on my behalf. Not understanding the
meaning of these words, I immediately repeated to him what Jesus had told me to
do.
467 Throughout the whole retreat, I was in uninterrupted communion with Jesus and
entered into an intimate relationship with Him with all the might of my heart.
468 The day of the renewal of vows. At the beginning of Holy Mass, I saw Jesus in the
usual way. He blessed us and then entered the tabernacle. Then I saw the
Mother of God in a white garment and blue mantle, with Her head uncovered. She
approached me from the altar, touched me with Her hands and covered me with
Her mantle, saying, Offer these vows for Poland. Pray for her. This was on
August fifteen.
469 On the evening of that same day, I felt in my soul a great yearning for God. I do
not see Him at this moment with my bodily eyes as I have on other occasions, but I
sense His presence and yet do not grasp Him [with my mind]. This causes me
great yearning and torment beyond words. I am dying from the desire to possess
Him, to be drowned in Him forever. My spirit pursues Him with all its might; there
is nothing in the world that could comfort me. O Love Eternal, now I understand in
what close intimacy my heart was with You! For what else can satisfy me in
heaven or on earth except You, O my God, in Whom my soul is drowned.
470 (194) One evening, as I looked up from my cell to the sky and saw the beautiful
star-strewn firmament and the moon, an inconceivable fire of love for my Creator
welled up within my soul and, unable to bear the yearning for Him that arose within
my soul, I fell on my face, humbling myself in the dust. I glorified Him for all His
works and, when my heart could no longer bear what was going on within it, I wept
aloud. Then my Guardian Angel touched me and spoke to me these words: “The
Lord orders me to tell you to rise from the ground.” I did so immediately, but felt no
consolation in my soul. The yearning for God grew even stronger in me.
471 One day, when I was at adoration, and my spirit seemed to be dying for Him, and I
could no longer hold back my tears, I saw a spirit of great beauty who spoke these
words to me: “Don‟t cry – says the Lord.” After a moment I asked, “Who are you?”
He answered me, “I am one of the seven spirits who stand before the throne of
God day and night and give Him ceaseless praise.” Yet this spirit did not soothe
my yearning, but roused me to even greater longing for God. This spirit is very
beautiful, and his beauty comes from close union with God. This spirit does not
leave me for a single moment, but accompanies me everywhere.
On the following day during Holy Mass, before the Elevation, this spirit began to
sing these words: Holy, Holy, Holy.” His voice was like that of a thousand voices;
it is impossible to put it into words. Suddenly, my spirit was united with God, and in
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that instant I saw the grandeur and the inconceivable holiness of God and, at the
same time, I realized (195) the nothingness I am of myself.
472 I knew, more distinctly, than ever before, the Three divine Persons, the Father, the
Son, and the Holy Spirit. But their being, their equality, and their majesty are one.
My soul is in communion with these Three; but I do not know how to express this in
words; yet, my soul understands it well. Whoever is united to One of the Three
Persons is thereby united to the whole Blessed Trinity, for this Oneness is
indivisible. This vision, or rather, this knowledge filled my soul with unimaginable
happiness, because God is so great. What I am describing I did not see with me
eyes, as on previous occasions, but in a purely interior manner, in a purely spiritual
way, independent of the senses. This continued until the end of Holy Mass.
This now happens often to me, and not only in the chapel, but also at work and at
times when I least expect it.
473 When our confessor [Father Sopocko] was away, I confessed to the Archbishop
[Romuald Jalbrzykowski 99]. When I revealed my soul to him, I received this reply:
“My daughter, arm yourself with great patience; if these things come from God,
they will be realized sooner or later. So be completely at peace. I understand you
very well in this matter, my daughter. And now, as regards your leaving the
Congregation and thinking of another one, do not entertain such thoughts, for this
would be a serious interior temptation.” After this confession, I said to the Lord
Jesus, “Why do You command me to do such things and yet do not make it
possible to accomplish them?” Then I saw the Lord Jesus after Holy Communion
in the same little chapel where I had gone to confession, in the same way in which
He is represented in the image. The Lord said to me, Do not be sad. I will give him to understand the things I am asking of you. When we were leaving, (196)
the Archbishop was very busy, but he told us to return and wait a bit. When we
entered the chapel again, I heard these words in my soul: Tell him what you have seen in this chapel. At that very moment the Archbishop came in and
asked if we did not have something to tell him. But although I had been
commanded to tell him, I could not do so because I was in the company of one of
the sisters.
One more word from the Holy Confession: “To entreat mercy for the world is a
great and beautiful idea. Pray much, Sister, pray for mercy upon sinners, but do it
in your own convent.”
The following day, Friday, September 13, 1935.
474 In the evening, when I was in my cell, I saw an Angel, the executor of divine wrath.
He was clothed in a dazzling robe, his face gloriously bright, a cloud beneath his
feet. From the cloud, bolts of thunder and flashes of lightning were springing into
his hands; and from his hand they were going forth, and only then were they
striking the earth. When I saw this sign of divine wrath which was about to strike
the earth, and in particular a certain place, which for good reasons I cannot name, I
began to implore the Angel to hold off for a few moments, and the world would do
penance. But my plea was a mere nothing in the face of the divine anger. Just
then I saw the Most Holy Trinity. The greatness of Its majesty pierced me deeply,
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and I did not dare to repeat my entreaties. At that very moment I felt in my soul the
power of Jesus‟ grace, which dwells in my soul. When I became conscious of this
grace, I was instantly snatched up before the Throne of God. Oh, how great is our
Lord and God and how incomprehensible His holiness! I will make no attempt to
describe this greatness, because before long we shall all see Him as He is. I
found myself pleading with (197) God for the world with words heard interiorly.
As I was praying in this manner, I saw the Angel‟s helplessness: he could not
carry out the just punishment which was rightly due for sins. Never before had I
prayed with such inner power as I did then.
475 The words with which I entreated God are these:
