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151 + Once, when I was in the kitchen with Sister N.,47 she got a little upset with me and, as a
punishment, ordered me to sit on the table while she herself continued to work hard,
cleaning and scrubbing. And while I was sitting there, the sisters came along and were
astounded to find me sitting on the table, and each one had her say. One said that I was
a loafer and another, “What an eccentric!” I was a postulant at the time. Others said,
“What kind of a sister will she make?” Still, I could not get down because sister had
ordered me to sit there by virtue of obedience 48 until she told me to get down. Truly, God
alone knows how many acts of self-denial it took. I thought I‟d die of shame. God often
allowed such things for the sake of my inner formation, but He compensated me for this
humiliation by a great consolation. During Benediction I saw Him in great beauty. Jesus
looked at me kindly and said, My daughter, do not be afraid of sufferings; I am with you.
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152 Once, I had night duty, 49 and I was suffering greatly in spirit because of the painting of the
image, and I no longer knew which way to turn because they were constantly trying to
convince me that the whole thing was an illusion. On the other hand, one priest said that
perhaps god wanted to be worshiped through this image and therefore I ought to try to get
it painted. Meanwhile, my soul was becoming extremely exhausted. When I entered the
little chapel, I brought my head close to the tabernacle, knocked (73) and said, “Jesus,
look at the great difficulties I am having because of the painting of this image.” And I
heard a voice from the tabernacle, My daughter, your sufferings will not last much longer.
153 One day, I saw two roads. One was broad, covered with sand and flowers, full of joy,
music and all sorts of pleasures. People walked along it, dancing and enjoying
themselves. They reached the end without realizing it. And at the end of the road there
was a horrible precipice; that is, the abyss of hell. The souls fell blindly into it; as they
walked, so they fell. And their number was so great that it was impossible to count them.
And I saw the other road, or rather, a path, for it was narrow and strewn with thorns and
rocks; and the people who walked along it had tears in their eyes, and all kinds of
suffering befell them. Some fell down upon the rocks, but stood up immediately and went
on. At the end of the road there was a magnificent garden filled with all sorts of
happiness, and all these souls entered there. At the very first instant they forgot all their
sufferings.
154 Once, when there was adoration at the convent of the Sisters of the Holy Family, 50 I went
there in the evening with one of our sisters. As soon as I entered the chapel, the
presence of God filled my soul. I prayed as I do at certain times, without saying a word.
Suddenly, I saw the Lord who said to me, Know that if you neglect the matter of the painting of the image and the whole work of mercy, you will have to answer for a multitude of souls on the day of judgment. After these worlds of Our Lord, a certain
fear filled my soul, and alarm took hold of me. Try as I would, I could not calm myself.
These words kept resounding in my ears: So, I will not only have to answer for myself on
the day of judgment, but also for the souls of others. These words cut deep into my heart.
When I returned home, I went to the little Jesus, 51 fell on my face before the Blessed
Sacrament and said to the Lord, “I will do everything in my power, but I beg You to be
always with me and to give me strength to do Your holy will; for You can do everything,
while I can do nothing of myself.”
155 (74) + It has happened to me for some time now that I immediately sense in my soul
when someone is praying for me; and I likewise sense it in my soul when some soul asks
me for prayer, even though they do not speak to me about it. The feeling is one of certain
disquiet, as if someone were calling me; and when I pray I obtain peace.
156 + Once, I desired very much to receive Holy Communion, but I had a certain doubt, and I
did not go. I suffered greatly because of this. It seemed to me that my heart would burst
from the pain. When I set about my work, my heart full of bitterness, Jesus suddenly
stood by me and said, My daughter, do not omit Holy Communion unless you know well that your fall was serious; apart from this, no doubt must stop you from uniting yourself with Me in the mystery of My love. Your minor faults will disappear in My love like a piece of straw thrown into a great furnace. Know that you grieve Me much when you fail to receive Me in Holy Communion.
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157 In the evening, when I entered the small chapel, I heard these words in my soul: My
daughter, consider these words: “And being in agony, he prayed more earnestly.”
When I started to think about them more deeply, much light streamed into my soul. I
learned how much we need perseverance in prayer and that our salvation often depends
on such difficult prayer.
158 + When I was at Kiekrz [1930] to replace one of the sisters 52 for a short time, I went
across the garden one afternoon and stopped on the shore of the lake; I stood there for a
long time, contemplating my surroundings. Suddenly, I saw the Lord Jesus near me, and
He graciously said to me, All this I created for you, My spouse; and know that all this beauty is nothing compared to what I have prepared for you in eternity. My soul
was inundated with such consolation that I stayed there until evening, and it seemed to
me like a brief moment. That was my free day, set apart for a one-day retreat, 53 (75) so I
was quite free to devote myself to prayer. Oh, how the infinitely good God pursues us
with His goodness! It often happens that the Lord grants me the greatest graces when I
do not at all expect them.
159 + O Blessed Host, in golden chalice enclosed for me,
That through the vast wilderness of exile
I may pass – pure, immaculate, undefiled;
Oh, grant that through the power of Your love
This might come to be.
O Blessed Host, take up Your dwelling within my soul,
O Thou my heart‟s purest love!
With Your brilliance the darkness dispel.
Refuse not Your grace to a humble heart.
O Blessed Host, enchantment of all heaven,
Though Your beauty be veiled
And captured in a crumb of bread,
Strong faith tears away that veil.
160 + The crusade day, 54 which is the fifth of the month, happened to fall on the First Friday of
the month. This was my day for keeping watch before the Lord Jesus. It was my duty to
make amends to the Lord for all offenses and acts of disrespect and to pray that, on this
day, no sacrilege be committed. This day, my spirit was set aflame with special love for
the Eucharist. It seemed to me that I was transformed into a blazing fire. When I was
about to receive Holy Communion, a second Host fell onto the priest‟s sleeve, and I did
not know which host I was to receive. After I had hesitated for a moment, the priest made
an impatient gesture with his hand to tell me I should receive the host. When I took the
Host he gave me, the other one fell onto my hands. The priest went along the altar rail to
distribute Communion, and I held the Lord Jesus in my hands all that time. When the
priest approached me again, I raised the Host for him to put it back into the chalice,
because when I had first received Jesus I could not speak before consuming the Host,
and so could not tell him that the other had fallen. But while I was holding the Host (76) in
my hand, I felt such a power of love that for the rest of the day I could neither eat nor
come to my senses. I heard these words from the Host: I desired to rest in your hands, not only in your heart. And at that moment I saw the little Jesus. But when the
priest approached, I saw once again only the Host.
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161 O Mary, Immaculate Virgin,
Pure crystal for my heart,
You are my strength, O secure anchor,
You are a shield and protection for a weak heart.
O Mary, you are pure and unparalleled,
Virgin and Mother at one and the same time;
You‟re beautiful as the sun, by nothing defiled.
Nothing is worthy of comparison to the image of Your soul.
Your beauty enthralled the Thrice-Holy One‟s eye,
That He came down from heaven, forsaking th‟eternal See‟s throne,
And assumed from Your Heart body and Blood,
Hiding for nine months in the Virgin‟s Heart.
O Mother, Virgin, this will no one omprehend,
That the infinite God is becoming a man;
It‟s only love‟s and His inscrutable mercy‟s purpose.
Through You, Mother – it‟s given us to live with Him for ever.
O Mary, Virgin Mother and Heaven‟s Gate,
Through You salvation came to us;
Every grace to us streams forth through Your hands,
And faithful imitation of You only will sanctify me.
O Mother, Virgin – most beautiful Lily.
Your Heart was for Jesus the first tabernacle on earth,
And that, because Your humility was the deepest,
Wherefore You were raised above Angel choirs and Saints.
O Mary, my sweet Mother,
To You I turn over my soul, my body and my poor heart.
Be the safeguard of my life,
Especially at death‟s hour, in the final fight.
162 (77) J.M.J. Jesus, I trust in You. January 1, 1937
Chart of internal control of the soul. Particular examen – to be united with the merciful
Christ. Practice: inner silence, strict observance of silence.
The Conscience
January: God and the soul; silence. Victories 41, falls 4.
Exclamatory Prayer: But Jesus remained silent.
February: God and the soul; silence. Victories 36, falls 3.
Exclamatory Prayer: Jesus, I trust in You.
March: God and the soul; silence. Victories 51, falls 2.
Exclamatory Prayer: Jesus, enkindle my heart with love.
April: God and the soul; silence. Victories 61, falls 4.
Exclamatory Prayer: With God, I can do all things.
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May: God and the soul; silence. Victories 92, falls 3.
Exclamatory Prayer: In His Name is my strength.
June: God and the soul; silence. Victories 64, falls 1.
Exclamatory Prayer: All for Jesus.
July: God and the soul; silence. Victories 62, falls 8.
Exclamatory Prayer: Jesus, rest in my heart.
August: God and the soul; silence. Victories 88, falls 7.
Exclamatory Prayer: Jesus, You know….
September: God and the soul; silence. Victories 99, falls 1.
Exclamatory Prayer: Jesus, hide me in Your Heart.
October: God and the soul; silence. Victories 41, falls 3.
Exclamatory Prayer: Mary, unite me with Jesus.
November: God and the soul; silence. Victories, falls.
Exclamatory Prayer: O‟ my Jesus, have mercy!
December: God and the soul; silence. Victories, falls.
Exclamatory Prayer. Hail, living Host!
163 (78) JMJ The Year 1937
General Exercises
+ O Most Holy Trinity! As many times as I breathe, as many times as my heart beats, as
many times as my blood pulsates through my body, so many thousand times do I want to
glorify Your mercy.
+I want to be completely transformed into Your mercy and to be Your living reflection, O
Lord. May the greatest of all divine attributes, that of Your unfathomable mercy, pass
through my heart and soul to my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my eyes may be merciful, so that I may never suspect or judge
from appearances, but look for what is beautiful in my neighbors‟ souls and come to their
rescue.
Help me, that my ears may be merciful, so that I may give heed to my neighbors‟ needs
and not be indifferent to their pains and moanings.
Help me, O Lord, that my tongue may be merciful, so that I should never speak negatively
of my neighbor, but have a word of comfort and forgiveness for all.
Help me, O Lord, that my hands may be merciful and filled with good deeds, so that I may
do only good to my neighbors and take upon myself the more difficult and toilsome tasks.
Help me, that my feet may be merciful, so that I may hurry to assist my neighbor,
overcoming my own fatigue and weariness. My true rest is in the service of my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my hart may be merciful so that I myself may feel all the sufferings
of my neighbor. I will refuse my heart to no one. I will be sincere even with those who, I
know, will abuse my kindness. And I will lock myself up in the most merciful Heart of
Jesus. I will bear my own suffering in silence. May Your mercy, O Lord, rest upon me.
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+ You Yourself command me to exercise the three degrees of mercy. The first: the act of
mercy, of whatever kind. The second: the word of mercy – if I cannot carry out a work of
mercy, I will assist by my words. The third: prayer – if I cannot show mercy by deeds or
words, I can always do so by prayer. My prayer reaches out even there where I cannot
reach out physically.
O my Jesus, transform me into Yourself, for you can do all things.
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164 (83) + JMJ Warsaw 1933
Probation Before Perpetual Vow s56
When I learned I was to go for probation, my heart beat with joy at the thought of such an
immense grace, that of the perpetual vows. I went before the Blessed Sacrament; and
when I immersed myself in a prayer of thanksgiving, I heard these words in my soul: My child you are My delight, you are the comfort of My Heart. I grant you as many graces as you can hold. As often as you want to make Me happy, speak to the world about My great and unfathomable mercy.
165 A few weeks before I was told about the probation, I entered the chapel for a moment and
Jesus said to me At this very moment the superiors are deciding which sisters are going to take the perpetual vows. Not all of them will be granted this grace, but this is their own fault. He who does not take advantage of small graces will not receive great ones. But to you, my child, this grace is being given. My soul was
seized with joyful surprise, because a few days earlier one of the sisters had said to me,
“Sister, you will not be going for the third probation. I myself will see to it that you will not
be permitted to make your vows.” I said nothing to the sister, but felt great pain which I
tried to conceal as best I could.
O Jesus, how strange are Your ways! I now see that people can do very little on their
own, for I did make my probation, as Jesus had told me.
166 In prayer I always find light and strength of spirit although there are moments so trying
and hurtful, that it is sometimes difficult to imagine that these things can happen in a
convent. Strangely, God sometimes allows them, but always in order to manifest or
develop virtue in a soul. That is the reason for trials.
167 (84) Today [November, 1932], I arrived in Warsaw for the third probation. After a cordial
meeting with the dear Mothers, I went into the small chapel for a moment. Suddenly
God‟s presence filled my soul, and I heard these words, My daughter, I desire that your heart be formed after the model of My merciful Heart. You must be completely imbued with My mercy.
Dear Mother Directress [Margaret]
At once asked me whether I had had a retreat that year, and I said no. “Then you must
first have a retreat of at least three days.”
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Thanks be to God there was at Walendow 57 an eight-day retreat in which I could take
part. But difficulties arose in regard to my leaving for this retreat. A certain person
opposed my going very much, and it already [appeared that] I was not to go. After dinner,
I went into the chapel for a five-minute adoration. Suddenly I saw the Lord Jesus, who
said to me, My daughter, I am preparing many graces for you, which you will receive during this retreat which you will begin tomorrow. I answered, “Jesus, the retreat has
already begun, and I am not supposed to go.” And He said to me, Get ready for it, because you will begin the retreat tomorrow. And as for your departure, I will arrange that with the superiors. And in an instant, Jesus disappeared.
I began to wonder how this was going to happen. But after a moment I rejected all such
thoughts and devoted the time I had to prayer, begging the Holy Spirit for light to see the
whole misery that I am. After a short while, I left the little chapel to go about my duties.
Soon Mother General [Michael] called me and said, “Sister, you will go to Walendow
today with Mother Valeria so that you can start the retreat tomorrow. Fortunately, Mother
Valeria happens to be here and you can go together.” Within two hours I was already in
Walendow. I reflected for a moment within myself and recognized that only Jesus can
arrange things in such a way.
168 (85) When the person who so strongly opposed my participation in the retreat saw me,
she showed surprise and dissatisfaction. Paying no heed to this, I greeted her
affectionately and went to visit the Lord, in order to learn how I should conduct myself
during the retreat.
169 My conversation with the Lord Jesus before the retreat. Jesus told me that this retreat
would be a little different from others. You shall strive to maintain a profound peace in respect to your communings with Me. I will remove all doubts in this regard. I know that you are at peace now as I speak to you, but the moment I stop talking you will start looking for doubts. But I want you to know that I will affirm your soul to such a degree that even if you wanted to be troubled, it will not be within your power. And as a proof that it is I who am speaking to you, you will go to confession on the second day of the retreat to the priest who is preaching the retreat; you will go to him as soon as he has finished his conference and will present to him all your doubts concerning Me. I will answer you through his lips, and then your fears will end. During this retreat, observe such strict silence that it will be as though nothing exists around you. You shall speak only to Me and to your confessor; you will ask your superiors only for penances. I felt immense joy
that the Lord would show me such kindness and lower himself so much for my sake.
170 The first day of the retreat. I tried to be the first in the chapel in the morning; before the
meditation I had a bit of time for prayer to the Holy Spirit and to Our Lady. I earnestly
begged the Mother of God to obtain for me the grace of fidelity to these inner inspirations
and of faithfully carrying out God‟s will, whatever it might be. I began this retreat with a
very special kind of courage.
171 (86) Struggle to keep silence. As usual, sisters from various houses came to the retreat.
One of the sisters whom I had not seen for a long time, came to me cell and said she had
something to tell me. I did not answer her, and she saw that I did not want to break
silence. She said to me, “I didn't know you were such an eccentric, sister,” and she went
away. I was well aware that she had no other business with me than to satisfy her own
curious self-love, O God, preserve me in faithfulness.
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172 The father58 who preached the retreat came from America. He had come to Poland for
only a short time, and it so happened that he conducted our retreat. A deep interior life
was reflected from his person. His bearing testified to the greatness of his spirit.
Mortification and recollection characterized this priest. But despite these great virtues, I
experienced much difficulty in revealing my soul to him in regard to graces received; as
for sins, it is always easy to do so, but in respect to graces I really have to make a great
effort, and even then I do not tell everything.
173 Satan‟s temptations during meditation. I felt a strange fear that the priest would not
understand me, or that he would have no time to hear everything I would have to say.
How am I going to tell him all this? If it were Father Bukowski I could do it more easily,
but this Jesuit whom I am seeing for the first time…. Then I remembered Father
Bukowski‟s advice that I should at least take brief notes of the lights sent to me by God
during the retreats and give him at least a brief report on them. My God, for a day and
half all has gone well, and now a life and death struggle is beginning. The conference is
to start in a half hour, and then I am to go to confession.
Satan tried to persuade me into believing that if my superiors have told me that my inner
life is an illusion, why should I ask again (87) and trouble the confessor? Didn‟t M.X.
[probably Mother Jane] tell you that the Lord Jesus does not commune with souls as
miserable as yours? This confessor is going to tell you the same thing. Why speak to
him about all this? These are not sins, and Mother X. told you that all this communing
with the Lord Jesus was daydreaming and pure hysteria. So why tell it to this confessor?
You would do better to dismiss all this as illusions. Look how many humiliations you have
suffered because of them, and how many more are still awaiting you, and all the sisters
know that you are a hysteric. “Jesus!” I called out with all the strength of my soul.
174 At that moment the priest came in and began the conference. He spoke for a short time,
as if he were in a hurry. After the conference, he went over to the confessional. Seeing
that none of the sisters were going there, I sprang from my kneeler, and in an instant was
in the confessional. There was no time to deliberate. Instead of telling the father about
the doubts that had been sown in me in respect to my dealings with the Lord Jesus, I
began to speak about these temptations I have just described above. The confessor
immediately understood my situation and said, “Sister, you distrust the Lord Jesus
because He treats you so kindly. Well, Sister, be completely at peace. Jesus is your
Master, and your communing with Him is neither daydreaming nor hysteria nor illusion.
Know that you are on the right path. Please try to be faithful to these graces; you are not
free to shun them. You do not need at all, Sister, to tell your superiors about these
interior graces, unless the Lord Jesus instructs you clearly to do so, and even then you
should first consult with your confessor. But if the Lord Jesus demands something
external, in this case, after consulting your confessor, you should carry out what He asks
of you, even if this costs you greatly. On the other hand, you must tell your confessor
everything. There is absolutely no other course for you to take, Sister. Pray that (88) you
may find a spiritual director, or else you will waste these great gifts of God. I repeat once
again, be at peace; you are following the right path. Take no heed of anything else, but
always be faithful to the Lord Jesus, no matter what anyone says about you. It is with just
such miserable souls that the Lord Jesus communes in this intimate way. And the more
you humble yourself, the more the Lord Jesus will unite Himself with you.”
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175 When I left the confessional, ineffable joy filled my soul, so that I withdrew to a secluded
spot in the garden to hide myself from the sisters to allow my heart to pour itself out to
God. God‟s presence penetrated me and, in an instant, all my nothingness was drowned
in God; and at the same moment I felt, or rather discerned, the Three Divine Persons
dwelling in me. And I had such great peace in my soul that I myself was surprised that I
could have had so many misgivings.
176 + Resolution: Faithfulness to inner inspirations, even though I would have no idea how
much I would have to pay for it. I must do nothing on my own without first consulting the
confessor.
177 + Renewal of vows. From the moment I woke up in the morning, my spirit was totally
submerged in God, in that ocean of love. I felt that I had been completely immersed in
Him. During Holy Mass, my love for Him reached a peak of intensity. After the renewal of
vows and Holy Communion, I suddenly saw the Lord Jesus, who said to me with great
kindness, My daughter, look at My merciful Heart. As I fixed my gaze on the Most
Sacred Heart, the same rays of light, as are represented in the image as blood and
water, came forth from it, and I understood how great is the Lord‟s mercy. And again
Jesus said to me with kindness, My daughter, speak to priests about this inconceivable mercy of Mine. The flames of mercy are burning Me – clamoring to be spent; I want to keep pouring them out upon souls; souls just don‟t want to believe in My goodness. Suddenly Jesus disappeared. But throughout that whole day
my spirit remained immersed (89) in God‟s tangible presence, despite the buzz and
chatter that usually follow a retreat. It did not disturb me in the least. My spirit was in
God, although externally I took part in the conversations and even went to visit Derdy. 59
178 Today we are beginning the third probation. All three of us met at Mother Margaret‟s, as
the other sisters were having their probation in the novitiate. Mother Margaret began with
a prayer, explained to us what the third probation consists of, and then spoke on how
great is the grace of the perpetual vows. Suddenly, I began to cry out loud. In an instant
all God‟s graces appeared before the eyes of my soul, and I saw myself so wretched and
ungrateful toward God. The sisters began to rebuke me, saying, “Why did she break out
crying?” But Mother Margaret came to my defense, saying that she was not surprised.
At the end of the hour, I went before the Blessed Sacrament and, like the greatest and
most miserable of wretches, I begged for His mercy that He might heal and purify my poor
soul. Then I head these words, My daughter, all your miseries have been consumed in the flame of My love, like a little twig thrown into a roaring fire. By humbling yourself in this way, you draw upon yourself and upon other souls an entire sea of My mercy. I answered, “Jesus, mold my poor heart according to Your divine delight.”
179 Throughout the third probation it was my duty to help the sister in the vestiary. 60 This
duty gave me many occasions to practice virtues. Sometimes I had to take linen to
certain sisters three times and still one could not satisfy them. But I also came to
recognize the great virtues of some sisters who always asked (90) for the poorest things
from the vestiary. I admired their spirit of humility and mortification.
180 + During Advent, a great yearning for God arose in my soul. My spirit rushed toward god
with all its might. During that time, the Lord gave me much light to know His attributes.
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The first attribute which the Lord gave me to know is His holiness. His holiness is so
great that all the Powers and Virtues tremble before Him. The pure spirits veil their faces
and lose themselves in unending adoration, and with one single word they express the
highest form of adoration; that is – Holy….. The holiness of god is poured out upon the
Church of God and upon every living soul in it, but not in the same degree. There are
souls who are completely penetrated by God, and there are those who are barely alive.
The second kind of knowledge which the Lord granted me concerns His justice. His
justice is so great and penetrating that it reaches deep into the heart of things, and all
things stand before Him in naked truth, and nothing can withstand Him.
The third attribute is love and mercy. And I understood that the greatest attribute is love
and mercy. It unites the creature with the Creator. This immense love and abyss of
mercy are made known in the Incarnation of the Word and in the Redemption [of
humanity], and it is here that I saw this as the greatest of all God‟s attributes.
181 Today I was cleaning the room of one of the sisters. Although I was trying to clean it with
utmost care, she kept following me all the time and saying, “You‟ve left a speck of dust
here and a spot on the floor there.” At each of her remarks I did each place over a dozen
times (91 ) just to satisfy her. It is not work that makes me tired, but all this talking and
excessive demands. My whole day‟s martyrdom was not enough for her, so she went to
the Directress and complained, “Mother, who is this careless sister who doesn‟t know how
to work quickly?” The next day, I went again to do the same job, without trying to explain
myself. When she started driving me, I thought, “Jesus, one can be a silent martyr; it is
not the work that wears you out, but this kind of martyrdom.”
182 I learned that certain people have a special gift for vexing others. They try you as best
they can. The poor soul that falls into their hands can do nothing right; her best efforts
are maliciously criticized.
+Christmas Eve.
Today I was closely united with the Mother of God. I relived her interior sentiments. In
the evening, before the ceremony of the breaking of the wafer, I went into the chapel to
break the wafer, in spirit, with my loved ones, and I asked the Mother of God for graces
for them. My spirit was totally steeped in God. During the Midnight Mass [“Pasterka” or
Shepherds‟ Mass], I saw the Child Jesus in the Host, and my spirit was immersed in Him.
Although He was a tiny Child, His majesty penetrated my soul. I was permeated to the
depths of my being by this mystery, this great abasement on the part of God, this
inconceivable emptying of Himself. These sentiments remained vividly alive in my soul all
through the festive season. Oh, we shall never comprehend this great self-abasement on
the part of God; the more I think of it, [unfinished thought].
183 One morning after Holy Communion, I heard this voice, I desire that you accompany Me when I go to the sick. I answered that I was quite willing, but after a moment of
reflection I started wondering how I was going to do so; the sisters of the second choir 61
do not accompany the Blessed Sacrament. It is always the sister-directresses who go.
(92) I thought to myself: Jesus will find a way. Shortly afterwards, Mother Raphael sent
for me and said, “Sister, you will accompany the Lord Jesus when the priest goes to visit
the sick.” And all through the time of my probation I carried the light, accompanying the
Lord and, as a knight of Jesus, I always tried to gird myself with an iron belt, 62 for it would
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not be proper to accompany the King in everyday dress. And I offered this mortification
for the sick.
184 +Holy Hour. During this hour, I tried to meditate on the Lord‟s Passion. But my soul was