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1401 (37) Yesterday I received a letter from Father Sopocko. I learned that God‟s work is
progressing, however slowly. I am very happy about this, and I have redoubled my
prayers for this entire work. I have come to learn that, for the present, so far as my
participation in the work is concerned, the Lord is asking for prayer and sacrifice. Action
on my part could indeed thwart God‟s plans, as Father Sopocko wrote in yesterday‟s
letter. O my Jesus, grant me the grace to be an obedient instrument in Your hands. I
have learned from this letter how great is the light which God grants to this priest. This
confirms me in the conviction that God will carry out this work through him despite the
mounting obstacles. I know well that the greater and the more beautiful the work is, the
more terrible will be the storms that rage against it.
1402 God, in his unfathomable decrees, often allows it to be that those who have expended
most effort in accomplishing some work do not enjoy its fruits here on earth; God
reserves all their joy for eternity. But for all that, God sometimes lets them know how
much their efforts please Him. (38) And such moments strengthen them for further
struggles and ordeals. These are the souls that bear closest resemblance to the Savior
who, in the work which He founded here on earth, tasted nothing but bitterness.
1403 O my Jesus, may You be blessed for everything! I rejoice that Your most holy will is
being accomplished. That is quite enough to make me happy.
1404 Hidden Jesus, in You lies all my strength. From my most tender years, the Lord Jesus
in the Blessed Sacrament has attracted me to Himself. Once, when I was seven years
old, at a Vesper Service, conducted before the Lord Jesus in the monstrance, the love
of God was imparted to me for the first time and filled my little heart; and the Lord gave
me understanding of divine things. From that day until this, my love for the hidden God
has been growing constantly to the point of closest intimacy. All the strength of my
souls flows from the Blessed Sacrament. I spend all my free moments in conversation
with Him. He is my Master.
1405 (39) November 30, 1937. When I was going upstairs this evening, a strange dislike for
everything having to do with God suddenly came over me. At that, I heard Satan who
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said to me, “Think no more about this work. God is not as merciful as you say He is.
Do not pray for sinners, because they will be damned all the same, and by this work of
mercy you expose your own self to damnation. Talk no more about this mercy of God
with your confessor and especially not with Father Sopocko and Father Andrasz.” At
this point, the voice took the appearance of my Guardian Angel, and at that moment I
replied,
“I know who you are; the father of lies [cf. Jn. 8:44].” I made the sign of the cross, and
the angel vanished with great racket and fury.
1406 Today, the Lord gave me to know interiorly that He would never abandon me. He gave
me to know His majesty and His holiness as well as His love and mercy towards me;
and He gave me a deeper knowledge of my own wretchedness. However, this great
misery of mine does not deprive me of trust. On the contrary, the better I have come to
know my own misery, the stronger has become my trust (40) in God‟s mercy. I have
come to understand how all this depends on the Lord. I know that no one will touch a
single hair of my head without His willing it.
1407 When I was receiving Holy Communion today, I noticed in the cup a Living Host, which
the priest gave to me. When I returned to my place I asked the Lord, “Why was one
host alive, since you are equally alive under each of the species? The Lord answered
me, That is so. I am the same under each of the species, but not every soul receives Me with the same living faith as you do, My daughter, and therefore I cannot act in their souls as I do in yours.
1408 I was present at Holy Mass celebrated by Father Sopocko. During the Mass, I saw the
Infant Jesus who, touching the priest‟s forehead with His finger, said to me, His thought is closely united to Mine, so be at peace about what concerns My work.
(41) I will not let him make a mistake, and you should do nothing without his permission. This filled my soul with great peace as regards everything that has to do
with this work.
1409 + Today the Lord Jesus is giving me an awareness of Himself and of His most tender
love and care for me. He is bringing me to understand deeply how everything depends
on His will, and how He allows certain difficulties precisely for our merit, so that our
fidelity might be clearly manifest. And through this, I have been given strength for
suffering and self-denial.
1410 Today [December 7, 1937] is the eve of the Feast of the Immaculate Conception of the
Virgin Mary. During the midday meal, in an instant, God gave me to know the
greatness of my destiny; that is, His closeness, which for all eternity will not be taken
away from me, and He did this in such a vivid and clear fashion that I remained
wrapped up in His living presence for a long time, humbling myself before His
greatness.
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1411 O Divine Spirit, Spirit of truth and of light,
Dwell ever in my soul by Your divine grace.
May Your breath dissipate the darkness,
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And in this light may good deeds be multiplied.
O divine Spirit, Spirit of love and of mercy,
Your pour the balm of trust into my heart,
Your grace confirms my soul in good,
Giving it the invincible power of constancy.
O Divine Spirit, Spirit of peace and of joy,
You invigorate my thirsting heart
And pour into it the living fountain of God‟s love,
Making it intrepid for battle.
O Divine Spirit, my soul‟s most welcome guest,
For my part, I want to remain faithful to You;
Both in days of joy and in the agony of suffering,
I want always, O Spirit of God, to live in Your presence.
O Divine Spirit, who pervade my whole being
And give me to know Your Divine, Triune Life,
And lead me into the mystery of Your Divine Being,
Initiating me into Your Divine Essence,
Thus united to You, I will live a life without end.
1412 (43) + It is with great zeal that I have prepared for the celebration of the Feast of the
Immaculate Conception of the Mother of god. I have made an extra effort to keep
recollected in spirit and have meditated on that unique privilege of Our Lady. And thus
my heart was complete drowned in Her, thanking God for having accorded this great
privilege to Mary.
1413 I prepared not only by means of the novena said in common by the whole community,
but I also made a personal effort to salute Her a thousand times each day, saying a
thousand “Hail Marys” for nine days in Her praise.
+ This is now the third time I have said such a novena to the Mother of God; that is, a
novena made up of a thousand Aves each day. Thus the novena consists in nine
thousand salutations. Although I have done this now three times in my life, and two of
these while in the course of my duties, I have never failed in carrying out my tasks with
the greatest exactitude. I have always said the novena outside the time of my
exercises; that is to say, I have not said the Aves during Holy Mass or Benediction.
Once, I made the novena while (44) lying ill in the hospital. Where there‟s a will, there‟s
a way. Apart from recreation, I have only prayed and worked. I have not said a single
unnecessary word during these days. Although I must admit that such a matter requires
a good deal of attention and effort, nothing is too much when it comes to honoring the
Immaculate Virgin.
1414 The Feast of the Immaculate Conception. Before Holy Communion I saw the Blessed
Mother inconceivably beautiful. Smiling at me She said to me, My daughter, at God’s command I am to be, in a special and exclusive way your Mother; but I desire that you, too, in a special way, be My child.
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1415 I desire, My dearly beloved daughter, that you practice the three virtues that are dearest to Me – and most pleasing to God. The first is humility, humility, and once again humility; the second virtue, purity; the third virtue, love of God. As My daughter, you must especially radiate with these virtues. When the conversation ended, She pressed
me to Her Heart and disappeared. When I regained the use of my senses, (45) my
heart became so wonderfully attracted to these virtues; and I practice them faithfully.
They are as though engraved in my heart.
1416 This has been a great day for me. During this day I remained as though in unceasing
contemplation; the very thought of this grace drew me into further contemplation; and
throughout the whole day I continued in thanksgiving which I never stopped, because
each recollection of this grace caused my soul, ever anew, to lose itself in God…
1417 O my Lord, my soul is the most wretched of all, and yet You stoop to it with such
kindness! I see clearly Your greatness and my littleness, and therefore I rejoice that
You are so powerful and without limit, and so I rejoice greatly at being so little.
1418 O suffering Christ, I am going out to meet You. As Your bride, I must resemble You.
Your cloak of ignominy must cover me too. O Christ, You know how ardently I desire to
become like You. Grant that Your entire Passion may be my lot. May all (46) Your
sorrow be poured into my heart. I trust that You will complete this in me in the way You
deem most fitting.
1419 + Today there was nocturnal adoration. I could not take part in it because of my poor
health, but before I fell asleep I united myself with the sisters who were at adoration.
Between four and five o'clock, I was suddenly awakened, and I heard a voice telling me
to join those who were adoring at that time. I understood that there was among them a
soul who was praying for me. 1420 When I steeped myself in prayer, I was transported in spirit to the chapel, where I saw
the Lord Jesus, exposed in the monstrance. In place of the monstrance, I saw the
glorious face of the Lord, and He said to me, What you see in reality, these souls see through faith. Oh, how pleasing to Me is their great faith! You see, although there appears to be no trace of life in Me, in reality it is present in its fullness in each and every Host. But for Me to be able to act upon a soul, the soul must have faith. O how pleasing to Me is living faith!
1421 Those taking part in adoration at that time (47) were Mother Superior and a few other
sisters. But I recognized that it was Mother Superior‟s prayer which had moved heaven,
and I rejoiced that there are souls so pleasing to God.
1422 When, during recreation the next day, I asked which sisters had been at adoration
between four and five o'clock, one of the sisters cried out, “Why do you ask, Sister?
Perhaps you had some revelation?” I fell silent and said no more; although I was asked
by Mother Superior, I could not answer because it was not a suitable moment.
1423 On a certain occasion, one of the sisters [Sister Damian Ziolek220] confided to me that
she wanted to choose a certain priest as her confessor. Very pleased, she shared the
news with me and asked me to pray for that intention, and so I promised her to do so.
During prayer, I learned that that soul would gain no spiritual profit from his direction.
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And then the next time we met, she told me again of her great joy in being under his
direction.
1424 I joined in her joy, but when she had (48) left I was severely rebuked. Jesus told me to
tell her what He had given me to know during prayer, which I did at the first opportunity,
although it cost me a great deal.
1425 Today, for a short while, I experienced the pain of the crown of thorns. I was praying for
a certain soul before the Blessed Sacrament at the time. In an instant, I felt such a
violent pain that my head dropped onto the altar rail. Although this moment was very
brief, it was very painful.
1426 Christ, give me souls. Let anything You like happen to me, but give me souls in return.
I want the salvation of souls. I want souls to know Your mercy. I have nothing left for
myself, because I have given everything away to souls, with the result that on the day of
judgment I will stand before you empty-handed, since I have given everything away to
souls. Thus You will have nothing on which to judge me, and we shall meet on that day:
Love and mercy…..
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1427 Hidden Jesus, life of my soul,
Object of my ardent desire,
Nothing will stifle Your love in my heart.
The power of our mutual love assures me of that.
Hidden Jesus, glorious pledge of my resurrection,
All my life is concentrated in You.
It is You, O Host, who empower me to love forever,
And I know that You will love me as Your child in return.
Hidden Jesus, my purest love,
My life with You has begun already here on earth,
And it will become fully manifest in the eternity to come,
Because our mutual love will never change.
Hidden Jesus, sole desire of my soul,
You alone are to me more than the delights of heaven.
My soul searches for You only, who are above all gifts and graces,
You who come to me under the form of bread.
Hidden Jesus, take at last to Yourself my thirsting heart
Which burns for You with the pure fire of the Seraphim.
I go through life in Your footsteps, invincible,
With head held high, like a knight, feeble maid though I be.
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