701 On this particular day, when I was feeling so bad and still went to work, every now and then I would feel sick. It was so very hot that, even without working, a person felt terrible, (140) not to mention what it was like when one had to work while suffering. So, before noon, I straightened up from my work, looked up to the sky with great trust and said to the Lord, “Jesus, cover the sun, for I cannot stand this heat any longer.” And, O wonder, at that very moment a white cloud covered the sun and, from then on, the heat became less intense. When a little while later I began to reproach myself that I did not bear the heat, but begged for relief, Jesus Himself put me at ease. 188 702 August 13, 1936. Tonight God‟s presence is pervading me, and in an instant I come to know the great holiness of God. Oh, how the greatness of God overwhelms me! I then come to know the whole depth of my nothingness. This is a great torment, for this knowledge is followed by love. The soul bounds forward vehemently toward God, and the two loves come face to face: the Creator and the creature; (141 ) one little drop seeks to measure itself with the ocean. At first, the little drop wants to enclose the infinite ocean within itself; but at the same moment, it knows itself to be just one small drop, and thus it is vanquished, and it passes completely into God like a drop into the ocean. At first, this moment is a torment, but so sweet that, on experiencing it, the soul is happy. 703 At present, the topic of my particular examen is my union with the Merciful Christ! This practice gives me unusual strength; my heart is always united with the One it desires, and its actions are regulated by mercy, which flows from love. 704 I spend every free moment at the feet of the hidden God. He is my Master; I ask Him about everything; I speak to Him about everything. Here I obtain strength and light; here I learn everything; here I am given light on how to act toward my neighbor. From the time (142) I left the novitiate, I have enclosed myself in the tabernacle together with Jesus, my Master. He Himself drew me into the fire of living love on which everything converges. 705 September 25. I suffer great pain in my hands, feet and side, the places where Jesus‟ body was pierced. I experience these pains particularly when I meet with a soul who is not in the state of grace. Then I pray fervently that the mercy of God will embrace that soul. 706 [September] 29. On the Feast of Saint Michael the Archangel, I saw by my side that great Leader, who spoke these words to me: “The Lord has ordered me to take special care of you. Know that you are hated by evil; but do not fear – “”Who is like God!‟ “ And he disappeared. But I feel his presence and assistance. 707 (143) October 2, 1936. The First Friday of the month. After Holy Communion, I suddenly saw the Lord Jesus, who spoke these words to me: Now I know that it is not for the graces or gifts that you love me, but because My will is dearer to you than life. That is why I am uniting Myself with you so intimately as with no other creature.
708 At that moment, Jesus disappeared. My soul was filled with the presence of God. I
know that the gaze of the Mighty One rests upon me. I plunged myself completely in
the joy that flows from God. I continued throughout the whole day without interruption,
thus immersed in God. In the evening, I fell as if into a faint and a strange sort of
agony. My love wants to equal the love of the Mighty One. It is drawn to Him so
vehemently that it is impossible, without some special grace from God, to bear the
vastness of such a grace in this life. But I see clearly that Jesus Himself is sustaining
me and strengthening me and making me capable of communing with Him. In all this,
the soul is particularly active.
189 709 (144) October 3, 1936. During the rosary today, I suddenly saw a ciborium with the
Blessed Sacrament. The ciborium was uncovered and quite filled with hosts. From
the ciborium came a voice: These hosts have been received by souls converted through your prayer and suffering. At this point, I felt God‟s presence as a child
would; I felt strangely like a child.
710 When one day I felt I would be unable to carry on till nine and asked S.N. 140 for
something to eat, because I was going to bed earlier as I was not feeling well, S.N.
answered, “But you are not ill, Sister; they only wanted you to have some rest, so they
made up the illness.” O my Jesus, my illness is so far advanced 141 that the doctor has
separated me from the sisters to prevent them from becoming infected, and yet one is
judged in this way. But that‟s good; all this is for You, my Jesus. I do not want to write
much about external matters, for they are not the reason for my writing; (145) I want in
particular to note the graces granted me by the Lord, because these are not only for
me, but for many other souls as well.
711 October 5, . Today I received a letter from Father Sopocko. I learned that he
intends to publish a holy card of the Merciful Christ. He asked me to send him a
certain prayer 142 which he wants to put on the back, if he receives the Archbishop‟s
approbation. Oh, what great joy fills my heart that God has let me see this work of His
mercy! How great is this work of the Most High God! I am but His instrument. Oh,
how ardently I desire to see this Feast of the Divine Mercy which God is demanding
through me. But if it is the will of God that it be celebrated solemnly only after my
death, even so I rejoice in it already, and I celebrate it interiorly with my confessor‟s
permission. 712 (146) + I saw Father Andrasz today, kneeling and engulfed in prayer, and suddenly
Jesus stood by him and, holding out both hands over his head, He said to me: - He will lead you through; do not fear. 713 October 11. This evening, as I was writing about this great mercy of God and its great
advantage to souls, Satan rushed into my room with great anger and fury. He seized
the screen and began to break and crush it. I was a little frightened at first, but
immediately made the sign of the cross with my little crucifix, and the beast fell quiet
and disappeared at once. Today, I did not see this hideous figure but only his anger.
Satan‟s anger is terrible, and yet the screen was not shattered or broken, and I went
on writing quietly. I know well that the wretch will not touch me without God‟s willing it,
but what is he up to? He is beginning to attack me openly (147) and with such great
fury and hate, but he does not disturb my peace for a moment, and this composure of
mine makes him furious. 714 + The Lord said to me today: Go to the Superior and tell her that I want all the sisters and wards to say the chaplet which I have taught you. They are to say it for nine days in the chapel in order to appease My Father and to entreat God‟s mercy for Poland. I answered the Lord that I would tell her, but that I must first speak
about this with Father Andrasz, and I resolved that as soon as Father comes I will
speak to him at once about this matter. When Father arrived, the circumstances were
such that they prevented me from seeing him, but I should not have paid any attention
to the circumstances and should have gone and settled the matter. I thought to
myself, “Well, I‟ll do it when he comes again.”
190 715 Oh, how much (148) that displeased God! In one moment, the presence of God left
me, that great presence of God which is continuously within me in a distinctly felt way.
At that moment, however, it completely left me. Darkness dominated my soul to such
an extent that I did not know whether I was in the state of grace or not. Therefore, I
did not receive Holy Communion for four days, after which I saw Father Andrasz and
told him everything. He comforted me, saying, “You have not lost the grace of God,
but all the same, be true to Him.‟” The moment I left the confessional, God‟s presence
enveloped me as before. I understood that God‟s grace must be received just as God
sends it, in the way He wants, and one must receive it in that form under which God
sends it to us. 716 O my Jesus, I am making at this very moment a firm and eternal resolution by virtue of
Your grace and mercy, fidelity to the tiniest grace of Yours. 717 (149) All night long, I was preparing to receive Holy Communion, since I could not
sleep because of physical suffering. My soul was flooded with love and repentance.
718 After Holy Communion, I heard these words:- You see what you are of yourself, but do not be frightened at this. If I were to reveal to you the whole misery that you are, you would die of terror. However, be aware of what you are. Because you are such great misery, I have revealed to you the whole ocean of My mercy. I seek and desire souls like yours, but they are few. Your great trust in Me forces Me to continuously grant you graces. You have great and incomprehensible rights over My Heart, for you are a daughter of complete trust. You would not have been able to bear the magnitude of the love which I have for you if I had revealed it to you fully here on earth. I often give you a glimpse of it, but know that this is only an exceptional grace from Me. My love and mercy knows no bounds. 719 (150) Today, I heard these words: Know, my child, that for your sake I grant blessings to this whole vicinity. But you ought to thank Me on their behalf, as they do not thank Me for the kindnesses I extend to them. For the sake of your gratitude, I will continue to bless them. 720 O my Jesus, You know how difficult community life is, how many misunderstandings
and misconceptions, despite at times the most sincere good will on both sides. But
that is Your mystery, O Lord. We shall know it in eternity; however, our judgments
should always be mild. 721 It is a great, an immeasurably great grace of God to have a spiritual director. I feel
now that, without him, I would not be able to journey alone in my spiritual life. Great is
the power of a priest. I thank God unceasingly for giving me a spiritual director. 722 (151 ) + Today, I head these words: You see how weak you are, so when shall I be able to count on you? I answered, “Jesus, be always with me, for I am Your little
child. Jesus, You know what little children do.”
723 + Today, I heard these words: The graces I grant you are not for you alone, but for a great number of other souls as well…. And your heart is My constant 191 dwelling place, despite the misery that you are. I united Myself with you, take away your misery and give you My mercy. I perform works of mercy in every soul. The greater the sinner, the greater the right he has to My mercy. My mercy is confirmed in every work of My hands. He who trusts in My mercy will not perish, for all his affairs are mine, and his enemies will be shattered at the base of My footstool. 724 (152) On the eve of the retreat, I started to pray that the Lord Jesus might give me
just a little health so that I could take part in the retreat, because I was feeling so ill
that I thought perhaps it might be my last. However, as soon as I had started praying I
felt a strange dissatisfaction. I interrupted the prayer of supplication and began to
thank the Lord for everything He sends me, submitting myself completely to His holy
will. Then I felt profound peace of soul.
+ Faithful submission to the will of God, always and everywhere, in all events and
circumstances of life, gives great glory to God. Such submission to the will of God
carries more weight with Him than long fasts, mortifications and the most severe
penances. Oh, how great is the reward for one act of loving submission to the will of
God! As I write, my soul is enraptured at the thought of how much God loves it and of
the peace that my soul already enjoys, here on earth.
(153) J.M.J. Cracow, 1936
O Divine Will, be my love!
725 + Eight-day Retreat, October 20, 1936.
My Jesus, I am going into the wilderness today to speak only with You, my Master and
my Lord. Let the earth be silent, and You alone speak to me, Jesus. You know that I
understand no other voice but Yours, O Good Shepherd. In the dwelling of my heart
is that wilderness to which no creature has access. There, You alone are King.
726 + When I entered the chapel for a five-minute adoration, I asked the Lord Jesus how I
should conduct myself during this retreat. Then I heard this voice in my soul: I desire that you be entirely transformed into love and that you burn ardently as a pure victim of love….