1151 (41 ) + When pain overwhelms my soul, And the horizon darkens like night, And the heart is torn with the torment of suffering, Jesus Crucified, You are my strength. When the soul, dimmed with pain, Exerts itself in battle without respite, And the heart is in agony and torment, Jesus Crucified, You are the hope of my salvation. And so the days pass, As the soul bathes in a sea of bitterness, And the heart dissolves in tears, Jesus Crucified, you shine for me like the dawn. And when the cup of bitterness brims over, And all things conspire against her, And the soul goes down to the Garden of Olives, Jesus Crucified, in You is my defense. When the soul, conscious of its innocence, Accepts these dispensations from God, The heart can then repay hurts with love. Jesus Crucified, transform my weakness into omnipotence. 265 1152 It is no easy thing to bear sufferings joyfully, especially those which are unmerited. Fallen nature rebels, and although the intellect and will are above suffering, because they are able to do good to those who inflict suffering on them, nevertheless the emotions raise a lot of noise and, like restless spirits, attack the intellect and will. But when they see they cannot do anything by themselves, they quiet down and submit to the intellect and will. Like some kind of hideousness, (42) they rush in and stir up a row, bent on making one obey them alone so long as they are not curbed by the intellect and will.
1153 June 23, . As I was praying before the Most Blessed Sacrament, my physical
sufferings ceased suddenly, and I heard this voice in my soul: You see, I can give you everything in one moment. I am not constrained by any law.
June 24. After Holy Communion, I heard these words: Know, My daughter, that in one moment I can give you everything that is needed for the fulfillment of this task.
After these words, an extraordinary light remained in my soul, and all God‟s demands
seemed to me to be so simple that even a little child could carry them out.
1154 [June] 27. Today, I saw the convent of the new Congregation. It was a large ad spacious
building. I went from room to room, observing everything, I saw that God‟s Providence
had provided for all that was necessary. The persons living in this convent were still
wearing lay clothes, but a thoroughly religious spirit reigned there, and I was organizing
everything just as the Lord wanted. All of a sudden, I heard a rebuke from one of our
sisters, “Sister, how can you carry out such works?” I answered that it was not I, but the
Lord working through me, and that I had the authorization for everything. During Mass, I
received light and profound understanding concerning this whole work, and not a shadow
of a doubt remained in my soul.
1155 (43) The Lord gave me knowledge of His will under three aspects, so to speak, but it all
comes down to one. 198
The first is that souls separated from the world will burn as an offering before God‟s
throne and beg for mercy for the whole world…. And by their entreaties they will obtain
blessings for priests, and through their prayers prepare the world for the final coming of
1156 The second is prayer joined to the act of mercy. In particular, they will defend the souls of
children against the spirit of evil. Prayer and merciful deeds are all that will be required of
these souls, and even the poorest persons can be admitted to their number. And in this
egoistic world they will try to rouse up love, the mercy of Jesus.
1157 The third is prayer and deeds of mercy, without any obligation of taking vows. But by
doing this, these persons will have a share in all the merits and privileges of the whole
[congregation]. Everyone in the world can belong to this group.
1158 A member of this group ought to perform at least one act of mercy a day; at least one, but
there can be many more, for such deeds can easily be carried out by anyone, even the
very poorest. For there are three ways of performing an act of mercy: the merciful word,
by forgiving and by comforting; secondly, if you can offer no word, then pray – that too is
mercy; and thirdly, deeds of mercy. And when the Last Day comes, we shall be judged
from this, and on this basis we shall receive the eternal verdict.
1159 God‟s floodgates have been opened for us. Let us want to take advantage of them before
the day of God‟s justice arrives. And that will be a dreadful day!
1160 (44) When once I asked the Lord Jesus how He could tolerate so many sins and crimes
and not punish them, the Lord answered me, I have eternity for punishing [these], and so I am prolonging the time of mercy for the sake of [sinners]. But woe to them if they do not recognize this time of My visitation. My daughter, secretary of My mercy, your duty is not only to write about and proclaim My mercy, but also to beg for this grace for them, so that they too may glorify My mercy.
1161 Today, my soul suffered such agony that I began to complain to the Lord Jesus, “Jesus,
how can You leave me alone? I cannot take even one step forward by myself. You have
taken my confessor away, and You Yourself are hiding from me. Surely, You know,
Jesus, that of myself I know nothing but how to waste Your graces. Jesus, You must
arrange things so that Father Andrasz will return.” But the anguish persisted.
1162 It occurred to me to go to some priest and tell him of my anguish as well as some various
inspirations, that he might resolve them for me; and I shared this idea with Mother
Superior [Irene]. Mother replied, “I understand, Sister, that you are going through a
difficult time, but at present, I really do not know of any priest who would be suitable for
you. At any rate, Father Andrasz will be returning soon. So, for now, go and tell
everything to the lord Jesus.”
1163 When I went to talk with the Lord for a while, I heard a voice in my soul: My – I will not give you the grace to reveal yourself to someone else, and even if you did bare yourself, I will not give that priest the grace needed to understand you. At this time, it is My desire that you put up with yourself patiently. (45) My daughter, it is not My will that you should tell everybody about the gifts I have granted you. I
have entrusted you to the care of the friend of My Heart, and under his direction
your soul will bloom. I have given him light to recognize My life in your soul.
1164 My daughter, when I was before Herod, I obtained a grace for you; namely, that you would be able to rise above human scorn and follow faithfully in My footsteps. Be silent when they do not want to acknowledge your truth, because it is then that you speak more eloquently.
1165 Know this, My daughter: if you strive for perfection you will sanctify many souls; and if you do not strive for sanctity, by the same token, many souls will remain imperfect. Know that their perfection will depend on your perfection, and the greater part of the responsibility for these souls will fall on you.
1166 Then He said to me, Do not fear, My child; but remain faithful only to My grace…..
1167 Satan has admitted to me that I am the object of his hatred. He said that “a thousand
souls do me less harm than you do when you speak of the great mercy of the Almighty
One. The greatest sinners regain confidence and return to God, and I lose everything.
But what is more, you persecute me personally with that unfathomable mercy of the
Almighty One.” I took note of the great hatred Satan has for the Mercy of God. He does
not want to acknowledge that God is good.
1168 (46) June 29, 1937. During breakfast today, Father Andrasz greeted the whole
community by telephone. He is already back [from Rome], and this very afternoon he
came to see us. The professed sisters, the novices, and both groups of students
assembled in the quadrangle [the girls‟ playground in front of the building] and waited for
our dear Father. The children welcomed him with songs and poems, and then we asked
him to tell us about Rome and the many beautiful things he had seen there. Ho spoke for
over two hours and, because of this, there was no time left to talk in private.
1169 Today, my soul entered into close union with the Lord. He made known to me how I
should always abandon myself to His holy will: In one moment, I can give you more
than you are able to desire.
1170 June 30, 1937. Today, the Lord said to me, I have wanted to exalt this Congregation many times, but I am unable to do so because of its pride. Know, My daughter, that I do not grant My graces to proud souls, and I even take away from them the graces I have granted.
1171 Today Sister Jolanta 199 asked me to make an agreement with her; she will pray for me,
and I am to pray for the girls in her class in Vilnius. As for me, I always pray for our work,
but I have resolved to pray for the class in Vilnius for two months, and Sister Jolanta will
say three Hail Marys to the Incarnate Word every day for the intention that I might profit
from God‟s grace. Our friendship has deepened.
1172 (47) July 1, 1937. The month of July.
Today during the Angelus, the Lord gave me an understanding of God‟s
incomprehensible love for people. He lifts us up to His very Godhead. His only motives
are love and fathomless mercy. Though You make known the mystery to us through an
angel, You Yourself carry it out.
1173 In spite of the profound peace my soul is enjoying, I am struggling continuously, and it is
often a hard-fought battle for me to walk faithfully along my path; that is, the path which
the Lord Jesus wants me to follow. And my path is to be faithful to the will of God in all
things and at all times, especially by being faithful to inner inspirations in order to be a
receptive instrument in God‟s hands for the carrying out of the work of His fathomless
1174 (48) July 4, 1937. First Sunday of the month.
This evening, I prepared with great care and prayed long to the Holy Spirit that that He
might deign to grant me His light and take me under His special guidance; [I prayed] also
to Our Lady, to my Guardian Angel, and to our patron saints. 200
1175 Fruit of the meditation.
Whatever Jesus did, He did well. He went along, doing good. His manner was full of
goodness and mercy. His steps were guided by compassion. Toward His enemies He
showed goodness, kindness, and understanding, and to those in need help and
I have resolved to mirror faithfully these traits of Jesus in myself during this month, even if
this costs me much.
1176 During Adoration, I heard a voice in my soul: These efforts of yours, My daughter, are pleasing to Me; they are the delight of My Heart. I see every movement of your heart with which you worship Me.
1177 Particular examen.
Continuation of the same: to unite myself with the merciful Christ. For the sake of His
sorrowful Passion, I will entreat the heavenly Father for the whole world. A point of the
rule: strict observance of silence.
I must probe the depth of my being and thank God for everything, uniting myself with
Jesus. With Him, in Him, and through Him, I give glory to God.
1178 (49) O Lord, my Love, I thank You for this day on which You have allowed me to draw a
wealth of graces from the fountain of Your unfathomable mercy. O Jesus, not only today,
but at every moment, I draw from Your unfathomable mercy everything that the soul and
body could want.
1179 July 7, 1937. In times o doubt; that is, when the soul is weak, let it ask Jesus Himself to
act. Although it knows that it should act by the grace of God, nevertheless, at certain
times, it is better for it to leave all action to God.
1180 June [July] 15, 1937. Once, I learned that I was to be transferred to another house. My
knowledge of this was purely interior. At the same time, I heard a voice in my soul: Do not be afraid, My daughter; it is My will that you should remain here. Human plans will be thwarted, since they must conform to My will.
1181 When I was close to the Lord, He said to me, Why are you afraid to begin the work which I have commanded you to carry out? “Why do You leave me on my own at
such times, Jesus, and why do I not feel Your presence?” My daughter, even though you do not perceive Me in the most secret depths of your heart, you still cannot say that I am not there. I only remove from you the awareness of My presence, and that should not be an obstacle to the carrying out of My will. I do this to achieve My unfathomable ends, which you will know of later on. My daughter, know without doubt, and once and for all, that only mortal sin drives Me out of a soul, and nothing else.
1182 (50) + Today the Lord said to me, My daughter, My pleasure and delight, nothing will stop me from granting you graces. Your misery does not hinder my mercy. My daughter, write that the greater the misery of a soul, the greater its right to My mercy; [urge] all souls to trust in the unfathomable abyss of My mercy, because I
269 want to save them all. On the cross, the fountain of My mercy was opened wide by the lance for all souls –